Lea

2 posts in one day.

I took Lea to take a look at the Mom's Day Out at the one baptist church by my house. I wanted to see if she would go a couple days a week to prepare her for school in August.

Lea is very, very clingy to me right now. I am not sure if this is a phase with her or what but she is so afraid of me leaving her. We are finally getting better about when I take the boys to school. We were at the point of her screaming at the top of the stairs, "don't leave me". And this happened every morning. I would tell her I was going to come back but she still kept crying and then added "you are breaking my heart". Ouch.

So, a few weeks ago Ron was in Nashville so I took Lea to the gym with me. 20 minutes later the lady came up to get me to tell me she was crying and they couldn't console her. She won't go back now. I realized that since she will be starting Pre-K in August I need to start preparing her now, obviously.

Yesterday I spoke to one of the Moms at the school because I assumed she was in charge of the moms day out program, and yes, she is the assistant director. She told me to bring Lea by and we could take a look at it.

We got out of the car, we walked to the church offices, we walked in and she immediately wanted me to pick her up. She looked at the woman I know, and then hid her head in my shoulder. The Pastor came out to meet us and give us the tour, wouldn't even look at him. We walked around with her head in my shoulder, she barely looked at anyone or anything.

The place is great. The 4 year old room is awesome and they prepare them for school with the Knox county guidelines. It was great. They have a brand new play ground and on cold days they have an awesome huge room that the kids get to play in. Its Great!

I get the forms we need, we go outside, Lea finally walks (which BTW, holding her walking down stairs was a killer on my legs which were, and are, still screaming from the workout this morning) and she says "Don't take me here ever again." :(

I am not sure what the deal is. She is very strong willed and VERY smart. Do I think she is playing me? There is a very good possibility that is exactly what she is doing, but I can't be sure. And in the mean time, though I will not show her this, she is breaking my heart as well.

The best part about all of this though? she constantly tells me she doesnt like me anymore, or that I am not her friend anymore. She is always angry with me, and yet, I am not allowed to leave her...ever.