Men

Ron hurt me today, pretty bad. Was it his fault, not really, but then again, yes it was. Huh? you say? Ron can not show emotion, nor give it. I have always known this about him, for 17 years I have known this, it was how he was raised, but every now and then, it hurts me bad, when I need him to be there for me and he just isn't.

So I say to that, thank God for girlfriends!

I knew I was going to go and talk to the craft store owner this afternoon, before picking up the boys from school, but I was also VERY nervous about it. Did I have a reason to be? Heck no, but the point is, I was. I was putting myself out there, and I am scared about it. Getting a hug and a reassuring, "it will be fine", would have been nice, but instead, I got nothing.

So, I cried.

I know Ron is this way, I do, but once every 4-6 months, it gets to me, and then frankly, its worse for him, but he also knows I will get over it.

Thank God for girlfriends.

I spoke to Michelle briefly today while I was in the car line at the school, and told her the short version of how upset I was, but mostly our conversation was me telling her that I have a bunch of cards to make now. (woohoo) We got home and I was upstairs in my room watching Barefoot Contessa with Lea and Andrew. I ran downstairs for a quick second, but left my phone upstairs. Michelle had called, and left me a voicemail.

She is awesome. She told me how great this was for me, and that she was happy for me, and wanted to give me a hug to congratulate me. She made me cry, in a good way.

Michelle, I love you. You are always there for me when I need you. I know that I can call you and yell, cry, or laugh, anytime, and you always let me, even when I shouldn't be calling you. Thank you so much, for everything.

Like I said above, I have some cards to make. The owner was awesome. She told me what she thinks would work out great, and then told me she liked the scout cards too, and then mentioned that I needed to make a sign or something to let people know that I can make personalized orders as well. YEAH! So, I need to get busy, and of course, I have no mojo right now. Figures. I was thinking I could work on all this tomorrow but, guess who has a 101.7 fever tonight???? Evan, again. So, he will be home tomorrow. Hopefully he kicks this before Saturday.

Thanks for letting me get this all out.